I'm going to give you my honest opinion. I'm no expert by any means, but hear me out. You may find this offensive, but keep in mind that I'm only trying to help.

Hold off on relationships. High school, especially in a big high school like yours, is a terrible atmosphere for dating. There's humongous peer pressure to just have a girlfriend or boyfriend no matter what, and on top of that the person you end up with has probably been with a dozen people before you, which means there's probably been ten situations like yours in Center for Creative Arts this year and there will probably be ten more before the year is out. Your life will turn into a soap opera and your relationship ends up being gossip to everyone else.

Also, and while this may be a hard fact to accept even though there are exceptions, more often than not high school dating ends up going nowhere. I'm serious, the number of people at school who are currently dating that will end up marrying will probably end up being a single-digit number.

Just wait. Sort yourself out. I'm not saying close yourself off to everyone, because that'll really screw you up. Just have a nice time at high school with your friends and try to avoid any dating. I'm not sure what to do about your friend, but on instinct I'd say this isn't worth losing a friend over. Don't let this ruin you.

You're in complete control of your own life. No shooting or hurting yourself, that's not going to solve anything (plus, that would make a bunch of people, including me, very sad). I'm on MSN whenever you want to talk, and you also have friends near you to talk to anytime.

Listen to me on this one. I almost never give advice like this, so you know this one's a keeper.

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The letters on the mysterious door say "Fancy hearing cake".

Wow, I couldn't say a damn thing that you didn't already o.o

I'm with you Grace

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please forget I existed

*smiles* ok. Don't worry, I don't plan on dating for a lonlonglonglonglonglonglonglonglonglong time. I totally agree. Dating in high school is superfluous and silly. And I mean, I know hurting yourself doesn't solve the problem, but it stops the hurt for a little while. I didn't find that offensive at all, love.

*TOTALLY 'preciates your input *

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That's how life is sometimes. but it will always get better. and if cutting helps, cut ahoy! I won't stop you. I do it, have done it, and will do it. and I'm still alive

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